Erna’s Testimony

^{“A journey of GOD’s Grace, Mercy, Miracles of Healing and of Health…”}

Dedication

    ^{“I dedicate this book to the LORD…}

^{…LORD thank YOU for blessing me not only with healing and health but also with the ability to do so much more. Now I can talk to people, complete strangers, and share my testimony of YOUR loving kindness, YOUR healing power and YOUR Grace and Mercy”.}

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^{I also want to dedicate this book to Hermanus, my love, my friend & my mate, my husband.}

^{Thank you, my love, that you never stopped praying. Thank you for looking after me, for your patience, your encouragement, your ‘funny ness’ when I needed it. The teachings you share with me, daily. Thank you, I love you.}  

^{Dear reader, let me introduce myself:}                                                                    

^{My name is Erna van Niekerk (born Trichardt), blessed, healed and beloved daughter of FATHER GOD. I believe in JESUS CHRIST and HE is my LORD and SAVIOR. I believe HE died on a wooden cross, has risen from the dead and is seated at the right hand of GOD. And that one day, JESUS will come back for me to join HIM in heaven.}

^{What you are about to read is not fiction or someone’s imagination. This is a true and just journey of grace, mercy healing and miracles. My journey. How and what I’m saying in the beginning of this journey is not necessarily how I ended up saying it. And that’s good, it shows I’ve grown.}

^{Please read the whole book. You will enjoy the journey I went through. I am sure FATHER GOD are busy with you on your own journey. Just maybe, you will see light for your own journey or find courage and maybe hope. I know you will be blessed.}

^{Thank you for the time you are taking out of your busy schedule and reading about my journey of Healing, Miracles, Favor, and GOD’s Grace. GOD’s Grace to each one of us is New every day. HE doesn’t want us to stay in sin, but nothing you OR I ever could have done OR are going to do, is a surprise to FATHER GOD.}   

^{HE knew it all and still Loved us so much that HE gave us HIS ONLY BEGOTTEN SON, JESUS CHRIST, so that our names can be written in the LAMB’s Book of Life – so that we can spend Eternity with HIM.}

^{FATHER GOD knows your name, HE Loves you.}

John 3:16 NKJV

¹⁶ For GOD so loved the world that HE gave HIS only begotten SON, that whoever believes in HIM should not perish but have everlasting life.  

 

08 February 2020 around 11 o’clock at night.

Jeremiah 29:11 NKJV     

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future”.

I open my eyes, and I know that I am lying in an ambulance…

“What happened, what happened, what happened…?”

I am trying to think, to grasp. What is going on?

I can hear my husband Hermanus hysterically talking. I’m trying to listen. Oh, my head, my back, my tongue. It all hurts. Why does only part of my tongue have feeling?

“…I don’t know what happened to mommy, yes, she’s in the ambulance now…” Aah, Hermanus is talking to our children.

I’m trying to think. What happened to me? Why can’t I remember anything? WHAT happened??? Then I’m thinking, I am fine, I am fine, I am fine. I just got to be fine…

My head and shoulder must be checked out at the hospital and off we go to our small-town hospital…

…ok, the scans are clear, no fracture in my shoulder or on my skull – I can go home. Thank you, but what happened to me? Why did this happen? We still don’t know why this happened.

At the hospital they tried in their best English to explain that I had had a seizure. A seizure? Why? There’s nothing wrong with me. I am a diabetic. What caused it? I didn’t feel anything. I was still working on the laptop, and now I’m here, now this!

Will it happen again? “What if” it happens again? Will I be, ok? What now, going forward? So many questions. But we’ve got no answers.

Hermanus and I got back home after 3 in the early morning hours. Through the tears and emotion, I asked him: “Please just tell me what happened”.

This is my husband’s version of what happened:

He said: “Let’s go to bed. It’s late, it’s cold”. It’s wintertime in Europe.

“Let me just finish these Facebook ads for the business. I wouldn’t be long”.

Just as he was dosing off, he heard a loud bang, on the wooden floor, and something hitting the floor in an erratic rhythm.

“Erna, Erna. ERNA!!”.

He jumped out of bed to where he left me, doing the ads at the dining room table.

He was greeted by a horrific scene. I was lying on my right-side kicking and banging my head on the wooden floor with alternating stiffening and jerking of my arms and legs. My eyes rolled back in my head. My jaw tightly clenched, I was biting my tongue. He tried to help me but did not know what to do…… “Oh GOD help me, please help me! Help me!”.

He ran to the window, flung it open, and shouted at the top of his lungs: “Help me! Help me! Help me!” – he knew that someone would open something somewhere to see what’s going on. And they did. They could tell from the noise and hysteria that something was medically wrong. The neighbors came and phoned the ambulance.  

 

02 May 2018 – A short introduction to our life.

We left South Africa with the intention never to return…

    I was a middle of the road person, an average person you would say. Someone with no high or low emotional outbursts. An even keel person. I loved to watch people. Some thought I was a snob. I was just not a big talker. I was an introvert. I was passive – in doing and in thinking. Sometimes I would just sit. Sit and stare. “What are you thinking?” Hermanus would ask. “Nothing, just sitting, thinking nothing”. But I would think about what to prepare for the next meal. Sometimes thinking about my childhood. Sometimes I would see myself sitting in a nice comfortable Lazy-boy chair, being ill or sick, and people coming to visit me. I did not think much of it.

Around 20 years ago, I was diagnosed with diabetes. What a horrible illness – but something I brought on myself – with my mouth, with my wrong unhealthy eating habits. I could never get enough food. A bag of crisps. Then I feel too salty. Then to balance it out, or so I thought, something sweet. Or vice versa. I’ll start with the sweet and switch over to the salty. I loved Russian sausages, pizza, pastries, pastas with creamy sauces. And the list goes on.

For years we lived off fast foods or ready/prepared meals. It was always a rush to get food. Never time to prepare healthy food. If I did have time, it would be rich fattening food with lots of sauces and starches.

I’ll try to eat healthy at a restaurant. Then I smell all the nice and spicy food. Start with a milkshake and then finish it with ice cream and chocolate sauce, or a brownie or malva pudding. The kilos kept on piling up.

This unhealthy eating went on for years. Until I was diagnosed.

Around the same time, I also started developing asthma – I had to use an asthma pump.

I was on tablets for diabetes. But did I change my eating habits?

I started drinking energy drinks, I had a favorite red one, I liked the taste. I just needed some energy, you know. I go to bed tired. I woke up tired. I’m never able to rid my body of this tiredness. You could see it in my face. My family said “Stop”. I said, “I will”, but kept on drinking it. I’ve heard about people, young people, seemingly healthy young people, just dropping dead. They only drank one Monster a day. I didn’t drink one daily, I’m safe. But it’s not safe to drink it, not at all…

Then around 2012 I started getting a “feeling” in my stomach. I could feel it moving up/creeping up towards my throat and head.

By the time it reached my throat, I would tell Satan to leave me; LORD, please help me, please help me, in JESUS NAME please help me. Every time HE did help me and the “feeling” left immediately.

When this “feeling”-thing started, it happened months apart.

Then after time it started to happen more regularly, more frequently, monthly.

Then after time, weekly.

Then after time, daily.

Then after time more than once a day.

Every time I asked FATHER GOD to please help me, and HE did. Every time.

I saw my doctor. I tried to explain. Because of the diabetes I didn’t know if I had or was in menopause. I had hot flushes. I sweat. I got tested up to menopause – can’t find anything wrong.

Because of the type of business we were in, all we heard every day, all day long was “crime, crime, crime…”

We were in the security industry – steel and electronic security.

We decided to leave our country of birth, our family’s…… our children said that they are also leaving. So, we left our culture, our language, all that was familiar and dear to us – because of crime and the political situation in our beautiful beloved country.

We googled and found a “safe, Christian country” – the Republic of Georgia, Europe, in the East Block – with Armenia, Turkey, and Russia as neighbors.

Less than 10% of the population speak English. Not a problem, we thought. How difficult can it be to communicate; how difficult can it be to make a living there, start a business; how difficult can it be to learn the language? We are up for it.

Oh my!!!

Boy were we in for a surprise.

“It was difficult”. The food’s unfamiliar. The culture is unfamiliar. What we perceived as ‘common sense’, is not their ‘common sense’.

But the Georgians are wonderful people.

The Georgian language ranked number 17 as one of the most difficult languages to learn. In the world!

Our children came. They saw, they experienced, they were disgusted with what they saw. Georgia’s got a lot of water. You don’t need a big drill to dig a well. Just something small, mounted on the back of a “bakkie” (pick-up) to drill for water, 4 to 6m deep, then you get water. And because of that, water was in the walls of most buildings. Mold in the walls, in hallways and stairs of the flats. If you are not used to the smell, it’s awful. You just keep on smelling it the whole time. Your chest tightens.

Our children were alone without their friends. Alone without being able to socialize, to communicate.

Our son Jaco and his girlfriend came back to SA within the next month.

Our daughter Angeline and her boyfriend came back to celebrate his father’s birthday in Feb the next year and then his own birthday in March – they said they were coming back.

My birthday is in April. And in 2019 it was the big 50 for me.

At the beginning of April, we finally dragged it out of our daughter – they were not coming back! What a birthday present, or so I thought…

But FATHER GOD helped us to cope with the loneliness. The feelings of rejection. Being left behind. This was not how we imagined how our ‘starting over’ in a foreign country would look like.

As it was a new country to us, everything, every process, and place was fascinating to us. We saw the beauty of the country, the beauty of the wonderful people.

The next question was: “where would we like to stay?” We didn’t know yet, so we moved around a lot.

What a struggle! To find a place to stay was not easy. Properties and places advertised, was a mission to find. We still did not find that ‘something’-business that we could do, that would fit our way of thinking, our way of doing.

Hermanus and I decided to keep on. We are entrepreneurs – we will find ‘something’ to start and make a good business out of it.

And we did.

We saw an opportunity in the property market. Selling properties to foreigners, foreigners like we were.

We advertised, our customers (foreigners like us looking for something, someplace, somewhere else) flew in, bought the property, stay a week or two and flew back to their home countries.

And it was a good business. Our business sold more properties in Western Georgia than all the estate agents (locals) in Western Georgia combined.

In December of 2019 Angeline came to visit us in the small coastal town of Poti where we were staying.

And we had a “white Christmas”. Experiencing snow for the very first time, over Christmas, real snow. It was so special.

The visit was far too short, and we were all alone again.

    We all saw the terrible footage on TV of people standing in the street, shaking, shaking, then just dropping, shaking, dying. Fear was wreaking havoc everywhere. The forces in power tried to establish fear in everyone’s mind – and it worked, they were successful.

People feared and thought: “I just don’t want to die like that”.

Everybody, everywhere, obeyed the rules. Fear of getting sick made us all sanitize. Wear the mask. Sanitize. Don’t socialize. Sanitize. Wear the mask. No more cigarettes. Sanitize. Wear the mask. DO NOT SOCIALIZE! Sanitize. Getting arrested for going to the beach. No more alcohol. Sanitize, sanitize, sanitize…

Nobody anywhere knew how long this covid pandemic would last, except for the people who created the virus…

We kept the business alive, full of hope all this covid nonsense would soon be over.

Then I was sitting at the dining room table, doing the Facebook ads for the business, when our whole world, as we knew it, changed.

Psalm 46:10&11    

HE says, “Be still, and know that I am GOD; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.”  The LORD Almighty is with us; the GOD of Jacob is our fortress.

Two days later, we picked our children up at the train station in the little coastal town of Poti, where we were staying… We were so happy to see them, so scared for the unknown lying ahead…

I knew I was the only one who could give this message to my family back in SA. I knew that although I was calm, I couldn’t trust my voice, so I sent a typed WhatsApp message. I knew it would be hardest on my mother.

I started my message by asking them to say “Praise GOD” 3 times.

Everybody took good care of me. Jaco oversaw the food and made the jokes and Angeline made sure I took the meds, got my sleep, and helped me wash.

Standing, washing out of the basin. My back was breaking. Never in my life did I like standing, now I really knew I did not like standing. I thought it had to be related to what happened to me. Something happened to my back. Maybe when I fell off the chair.

I could not go to the bathroom alone – the door was to be always open – no privacy. Somebody had to hold my hand while I was walking, slowly.

Around 4 days after the children arrived, I asked Angeline to please help me wash my hair, it’s so dirty and messy. She helped me and poured the water. Ahhh, a clean head and hair, it felt so good. “Oh, my back, my back is breaking”.

After drying my hair and slowly finding my spot on my big comfortable lazy-boy chair, I listened to all the familiar talking in the lounge. I felt another “feeling” creeping up. It started just above my tummy, a little higher than usual, it’s not a big one. Just a little lite………

 

22 Feb 2020.

Psalm 46:10    

And HE arose, and rebuked the wind, and said unto the sea, Peace, be still. And the wind ceased, and there was a great calm.

 

I open my eyes, and I knew that I was lying in the ambulance… again.

Not again, please, not again. What happened, what happened? Oh, my back. Oh, my tongue, it’s so painful, so big and swollen. Why can I only feel one side of my tongue? What’s going on? What’s going on? What happened to me? What lies ahead? Will I be ok in the end, whatever the end will be? Is this now my life? Questions, questions, and more questions in my mind. I did not dare to think negatively. Or speak it.

Turn to FATHER GOD. HE will help me. HE always helps me.

We want to do an MRI scan please, something is wrong.

“We are sorry, although you have good medical aid, the excess you need to pay is very expensive”. It’s OK, we’ll pay.

We are sorry, our hospital is too small and cannot perform the MRI scan. We will have to go to another town. It’s OK, we will drive. We need to know what’s going on.

“We are sorry, we must take your wife by ambulance”. I cannot drive with my family in the car.

It was the longest, most uncomfortable ride in my life. This uncomfortable flat “bed”. “How will my back survive this?” But it just had to, and it did.

The staff in the ambulance talked to our translator who was with me. They were talking in Georgian. I knew they were talking about me, about us, what are we doing in this ‘far-away-from-home’ country as foreigners? I could hear the words “Africa” and the name of our business.

Finally, we arrived at the hospital, and I was wheelchaired into Emergencies.

Because of covid my family had to wait outside. The staff did not speak English, only the translator was allowed in with me to explain what they wanted me to do. “We are sorry the noises are very loud in the MRI machine”.

I needed to hold on to somebody to slowly lie down. My back was breaking.

We did the scan.

The head surgeon, who could speak English, called us into his office.

We sat down. “Any other new problems?”, he asked. “No”, except for the two incidents, I am fine.

On the wall was a big monitor. He switched it on. It’s a skull. My skull. We were ready for what he was about to say. Or so we thought.

Then he started speaking.

“Tumor 1 is not a problem right now. 

Tumor 2 is the problem, causing the incidents, the seizures…”

For the first time in his life Hermanus did not immediately know what to say. We just sat there and listened. “Seizures”, the doctors’ words echoed in my ears.

“Your wife is OK for now but needs an emergency operation within the next 7 to 10 days, or she will die”.

Huh? Did we hear correctly? How do you use the two together: “your wife is ok” and “going to die”? How do you even use the two together in the same sentence? We were not prepared for this diagnosis, not prepared for these words.

Dr. Yacob went on. “In a hospital there are many germs and viruses. Your wife is diabetic. And now, there is covid – we do not fully know the extent of this virus, there are no statistics”.

“The tumor sits close to the main vein of the brain. I cannot cut the whole tumor out. I will have to leave approximately 10% of the tumor. If I make a mistake, your wife will bleed to death on the operation table…”

“…taking everything into account, your wife has less than a 10% chance of survival…”

I was sitting and listening in disbelief. No, no, no. This cannot be. I was watching from afar. It did not seem real. I am only a diabetic, otherwise I am healthy. I wanted to start laughing hysterically – my stress response. “No, he’s not talking about me. Just last week I was still fine” are the thoughts going through my mind.

My dear Hermanus got strength and his voice back. He told the doctor to stop talking. “No more negative talk”.

“Are you a good doctor?” Hermanus asked.

Yes. But you must unders… “Doctor are you good?” Here are viruses an… “Doctor are you good?” A nod of the head.

“Then you just do your best job on the day of the operation, we will pray to GOD, we will pray”. I knew I had to trust FATHER GOD, and I did.

We were all business again and I was able to speak. I asked the doctor what would happen to my skull where he needed to cut.

“Oh, the brain swells. We cannot put the skull back immediately. You will have to come back in 10 to 14 days after the operation for the piece of the skull to be put back into place”. Hermanus and I looked at each other “Oh…”. Then our visit with dr. Yacob ended.

He will also send a piece of the tumor for a biopsy.

We left the hospital.

In the car on our drive back home Hermanus reassured me that everything would be ok. I said: “GOD knows the good plans HE’s got for us, for me, and its good plans. This tumor is not a good plan, it’s not the end now”.

Somewhere between receiving the doctor’s prognosis and driving home we prayed and asked FATHER GOD to bless dr. Yacob’s hands. That FATHER GOD would hold his hands so he can be precise, that he would do his best operation, on the day of my operation.

Back home, we only spoke positive, encouraging words. I had calmness in me.

‘Not being OK, was not an option’.

How did this happen now?

05 March 2020.

Psalm 62:2    

HE only is my rock and my salvation: HE is my high tower; I shall not be greatly moved. … HE alone is my rock and my Savior – my Stronghold.

“I am sorry, but your family cannot visit you”. Covid. Lockdown rule…Or, as we would learn to say in Georgia: “Commandant” – curfew rule.

We booked into the hospital. And in the wink of an eye my family had to leave – too many people in the room. Covid rules. Leave, leave, leave…

Do you know how privileged we are in our 1^st world countries to have hospitals where you get food, three times a day? Tea and coffee? Have a comfortable chair to sit in?

Well Georgia is a developing country. There in hospital, you just get the medical care… and water to drink.

My family had to bring me food, bottled water, soft toilet paper. But because of the new ‘commandant’, they had to leave it at the info counter. The staff brought it to my room.

I was on a strict diet because of diabetes – curdled milk and foul–smelling plain cottage cheese. I mixed the two in a glass together and just swallowed – it was the quickest way to get it down. That was it. 3 Times a day, breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Have you ever had either of the two at room temperature? Mixed?

In hospital, it was not just the grownups who couldn’t see their families, but the children also.

I was lying in my bed. I heard a child start crying. I knew the nurse is on her way to the scared little children.

“FATHER GOD, please help that child. LORD, they are scared, they are lonely, afraid without mommy. LORD, please turn that crying into laugh….” …the children started laughing.

“Dear LORD, I haven’t even finished my prayer yet, and YOU have already answered it. YOU are such an Awesome GOD”.

Because of an emergency operation before mine, the operation was moved to the 7^th of March 2020.

When the staff came to fetch me, I was calm. I knew Hermanus was praying for me. I knew he would be praying the whole duration of the operation. I knew my family was praying.

The hospital staff only spoke to each other and, where needed, demonstrated what I was to do.

Lying on the bed before the anesthesia kicked in, I just focused on the LORD. YOU are my rock and my SALVATION. In YOU alone I trust.

Repeating it over and over and over and ove…

Let All Things Praise the Lord

PSALM 150: 1-6

150 Praise the Lord!

Praise GOD in HIS sanctuary; Praise HIM in HIS mighty firmament!

² Praise HIM for HIS mighty acts; Praise HIM according to HIS excellent greatness!

³ Praise HIM with the sound of the trumpet; Praise HIM with the lute and harp!

⁴ Praise HIM with the timbrel and dance; Praise HIM with stringed instruments and flutes!

⁵ Praise HIM with loud cymbals; Praise HIM with clashing cymbals!

⁶ Let everything that has breath praise the Lord.

Praise the Lord!

Do you believe in miracles?

 

 

09 March 2020.

Luke 18:27    

JESUS replied, “What is impossible with man is possible with GOD.”

I remember the doctor’s words: “…you’ll have to come back so we can put the piece of skull back – usually the brain swells because of the trauma…”  ….. but GOD.

It was supposed to be a 6-hour operation – it took 9 hours.

I knew Hermanus was prying when I couldn’t – and he did.

I was in ICU until the next morning. Then they took me back to my room.

“We are here to clean the wound”. They took off the bandages.

“Can you please take a photo for me?”

On day 3 after the operation, they came to take out the small drainage pipe. I cried like a baby – it was so painful. They closed the small hole with another staple. Not so painful as the removal of the drainage pipe.

You remember that creeping “feeling” I tried to explain earlier?

It happened while I was driving alone on the highway. It happened while I was alone in the swimming pool. It happened while I was busy cooking. It happened while I was knitting.

I realized the “feeling” was a possible seizure that I could have had at any point at any time – but didn’t – FATHER GOD helped me every time I asked.

I also didn’t have the seizure in our big house with the tiled floor where nobody would have heard me if I fell on the floor.

It had to have happened there in Europe. Where the houses have wooden floors that are noisy. Where my dear husband could hear me and know something was wrong.

But I realized something else.

If “it” did happen in our big tiled-floor house, surrounded by ‘my’ people, ‘our’ support system, where there was ‘other’ help available, would I have listened? Would I have still trusted GOD?

If it wasn’t for covid, with its isolation, with plenty of time on hand, would I have listened?

And now with covid and not socializing? With time on my hands? What did I do with my time? Am I listening now? Do I have time for FATHER GOD now? Does FATHER GOD have my attention now?

FATHER GOD can use anything and everything that was meant for our destruction and use it to HIS glory.

I believe that FATHER GOD used even this covid and isolation, the diabetes, and the tumors to let it all work for HIS glory.  

Healing is available…

 

Sometimes we are unhappy with what is happening in our lives. Why did this or that not happen the way I wanted it, or it didn’t turn out how I thought it would? FATHER GOD knows what’s in our future. And if something happens to us, HE wants us to ask HIM for help, believe HIM and accept HIS help.

On the morning of day 4 they took out the intravenous needles (for the antibiotics, and where the insulin was administered) that were in my shoulder! Free from it at last, now I can move a bit. Slowly I stood up. I went to the toilet on my own. Up until now there was a catheter. Later in the afternoon I secretly and slowly washed out of the basin. Oh, my back. Need to sit, need to sit.

On the 12^th of March 2020 – on day 5 after the operation, we could go home.

The doctor said it’s the first time he’s ever seen it… “Your wife is very lucky. Her brain did not swell, and I was able to immediately put the piece of skull back”. “No dr. you are wrong”. This can happen. “This is a miracle – this can only be GOD”.

But first I had to see the Oncology doctor to hear the results of the biopsy.

“The tumor is not cancer”. “Thank YOU, FATHER GOD”.

It was a grueling drive. I could not sit comfortably. Although we drove a big ML350, I could not sit all the way. We had to stop along the way so I could stretch my legs.

Too soon our children had to come back to South Africa – they just made it in time before covid closed all the international borders. And this closing of the international borders closed our Estate Agency business. Nobody could fly anywhere.

It was still winter in Europe.

I started to get night sweats. Every night I had to change my clothing 2 to 3 times. I was soaking wet. The bedding was wet. My pillow was wet.

At this stage I am analyzing 5 times a day. Using insulin 5 times a day. I was living from one analysis and insulin injection to the next.                                                                                          

Then my blood pressure started to go wild – that influenced my sugar levels. The two of them were working against each other.

A Psalm of David.

23 The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want.

² HE makes me to lie down in green pastures; HE leads me beside the still waters.

³ HE restores my soul; HE leads me in the paths of righteousness For HIS name’s sake.

⁴Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil; For YOU are with me; YOUR rod and YOUR staff, they comfort me.

⁵ YOU prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies; YOU anoint my head with oil; My cup runs over.

⁶ Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me All the days of my life; And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.

A few times during this high blood pressure and high blood sugar issues, I thought I was going to die. Never before in my life did I feel so terrible and my body so out-of-control. I went through the “valley-of-death”. “LORD please just help me, please just help me”, and every time HE did.  

Healing is available…

 

And in Psalm 23 David says, “YOU prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies” and we humans want these ‘enemies’ to be other humans; those who have done us wrong; who hate us. It might be like that. BUT for me: the ‘enemies’ his talking about, was the ‘things’ that wanted to kill me. Tumors, diabetes, high blood pressure, adrenal glands.

…I didn’t want to go to the doctor, I got flu the last time I was there. Around the end of March my tummy started swelling. I could not eat. I got nauseous when I smelled food. I could not poop. Whatever goes in, didn’t come out.

Finally, when I realized I cannot go on like this, we went to the doctor.

“We must take you to hospital. No, we must take you by ambulance”.

07 April 2020.

Philippians 4:6

Be anxious about nothing, but in everything, by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to GOD. …

“LORD, I want to go home for my birthday, please…”

I was admitted in the late afternoon into a clinic where even less staff can speak English.

Now, there was a proper lockdown of the towns. And there was curfew – commandant as we got to call it. It was too late in the afternoon for Hermanus to drive on the open road, too late for him to go home. No Hotels are open because of covid. Well then, he can only sleep in the car – praying to GOD the police don’t see him. Hermanus still had to bring me food, normal food, but not a lot of shops were open.

Test for this, test for that.

Enema – still nothing comes out.

“Please, you are doing all these tests and scans. Just do a scan of my back. Something is wrong, something is wrong”.

And what is this now? “I cannot breathe”. “No, I don’t have covid, I was tested”. Why can’t I breathe on my own?

Oxygen mask. Analysis. Why am I so tired? Still the night sweats. “Oh, my back”. “I’m so tired”. Oxygen, oxygen, analysis, oxygen…

While in the middle of it all, arthritis also started attacking my body, especially my legs and hips. And tendonitis in my fingers.

I realized my birthday was coming up on the 16^th. Thoughts were going through my head. Granny so and so was in hospital. All the family was so excited. Granny is going home tomorrow. And then later that night, granny dies in her hospital bed. No, no, no, no. What do I want? This explained scenario is not what I want. I want to have my birthday. I turned my attention deliberately away from me. I prayed to FATHER GOD.

My prayer was something like this:

“FATHER on the 16^th it’s my birthday, but YOU know that. FATHER, I want to be home for my birthday. FATHER, I don’t mean home in heaven, I mean home with Hermanus where we stay in Poti. Thank YOU, FATHER. In JESUS NAME I pray. Amen”.

I asked. I had peace in my heart.

On the 14^th of April, Hermanus and I went to our home in Poti where we stayed.

All went well with the brain operation, then the faith-test came with the week in the clinic. When I was not able to breathe on my own. My body full of arthritis.

I did not care about covid. I did not care about my messy hair. I did not care about my nails. I cared about the next breath. I cared about making it through the next few minutes. I cared about making it through the day. I cared about making it through the night.

Music started to play a big role in my life. The one song says: “…GOD of the mountain is still GOD in the valley”. And it is so true.

On day 7 of being in the clinic the staff said they are letting me go home because tomorrow there’s a new lockdown. We must get back home before the lockdown.

As we left the hospital, one doctor who could speak broken English, said that he sees there’s a problem on my adrenal glands. That’s why my back is so painful. I must go see the doctor.

I thought: ‘Last time I went to see the doctor, you took me to hospital. I don’t want to go again’.

The next morning, we were informed on social media: new lockdown – no private cars on the road. “No visiting the doctor” then.

We spent a quiet day at home for my birthday – I was so happy to be home with Hermanus in Poti.

I was taking it slow. I still couldn’t really eat. I still got nauseous. I still had the night-sweats. I was still washing out of the basin – no shower for me because of the staples – still my back was breaking.

I was living from one analysis to the next. Analyzing 5 times a day. Using insulin 5 times a day.

Matthew 7:7-8    

Knock (and keep knocking) and the door will be opened for you. For everyone who asks (and keeps on asking) receives. He who seeks (and keeps on seeking) finds. To him who knocks (and keeps on knocking) the door will be opened.

…and this is exactly what Hermanus did while I was in hospital. He kept on asking FATHER GOD for my complete healing, my complete recovery, me returning healed and healthy to him, to be able to sit next to him again, to have me by his side…

Hermanus always said: “I don’t need you; I want you”.

While sitting alone at home, looking at my empty chair, he prayed and asked forgiveness. “LORD, I NEED my wife”.

“Thank you Hermanus that you never stopped praying, never stopped knocking on FATHER GOD’s door” from Erna.

Do you know how to climb Mount Everest…?

    You start at basecamp.

You spend a few days there to acclimatize. Then you climb to level one. You stay a few days at level one to acclimatize, then you go back to basecamp so your body can recover….

Then you climb to level two. Wait to acclimatize. Go back to basecamp to recover. But you keep on going.

The day after my birthday I told Hermanus I wanted to watch a Christian teaching of Joseph Prince on YouTube. We watched – it was about GOD’s Grace. We enjoyed it.

Next day the usual basin washing for me. “Oh, my back is breaking”. As I was getting dressed, Hermanus knew I would want to watch another teaching again. There are different titles to the teachings. He sees one in the line of ‘Eat-yourself-Healthy’. “Ah”, he thought. My wife needs to get healthy; she needs to start eating. And since we both like food and eating (when not sick), it would be a good teaching to watch.

April 2020.

Matthew 18:20.

“For where two or three are gathered together in MY name, I am there among them.” 

This ‘Healthy Eating’ was not exactly the type of diet-plan we had imagined…

Big was our surprise when we learned what Healthy Eating plan he was teaching on.

Communion.

I knew I had unforgiveness in my heart. I knew I handled things incorrectly. I bottle things up, I let my imagination and thoughts secretly run wild. I knew I judge people, sometimes silently, but usually out loud. I never put brakes on my “silent” imagination.

When we were still in South Africa, staying in our beautiful house, I saw myself being sick, sitting in my big lazy-boy chair and people coming to visit me. Well that was exactly what I got!

But FATHER GOD. I knew I had to turn to HIM to help me, to forgive me.

I made sure I surrendered all to FATHER GOD. I asked forgiveness from all who had ever done me wrong. I also forgave them. I asked forgiveness for all I have done wrong. I also asked forgiveness for myself. I gave all the unforgiveness, judgmental mindset to FATHER GOD.

I named everybody, every situation that I could remember that offended and had hurt me that I was holding on to – I gave it all to FATHER GOD and I let it all go. Including my husband, my children, my family.

GOD’s WORD says where two or three are gathered in HIS NAME. Well, we were 2, and when gathered in HIS NAME there HE is also.

So, there we are. The two of us, having Communion.

 

Now my question to you:

• were you bullied as a child? Forgive those who did the bullying.
• have you ever been raped? Forgive the rapist(s).
• did you have a violent spouse who treated you badly? Have hurt you in anger? Forgive.
• were your child/children ever been molested by their father/family member/close friend? Forgive that person.
• have you ever lost a child/brother/sister/spouse/parent in an accident? Forgive those who caused the accident.
• have you ever lost a child/brother/sister/spouse/parent in a drowning due to someone’s negligence? Forgive those who who were negligent.
• were you ever cross/mad at FATHER GOD when you (or your child/spouse/parent) got a bad medical report? FORGIVE, FORGIVE, FORGIVE.

FATHER GOD did not do it!!! 

Some things are in HIS allowable will for your life BUT we live in a fallen world and ALL of us has sinned against FATHER GOD.

Hebrews 11:1-6 NKJV

Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. For by it the elders obtained a good testimony. By faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible.

I realized it’s GOD only that can help me. And I knew, like the woman in the bible with the issue of blood, if I could only touch the hem of HIS garment, I will be healed. I touched it, while having communion. Every day, the hope of it not being the end for me now, grew into building my faith more and more.

I said: “LORD YOUR Word says ‘by JESUS’s stripes I am healed’. I believe it” and I gave these adrenal glands and the pain to FATHER GOD at communion, and I left it with the FATHER.

I started with hope. We went about our day of sleeping, analyzing, resting, analyzing, nibling, analyzing, tablets, analyzing, sleeping.

The next morning, I took my usual ‘basin’ wash. I wrapped the towel around my body and as I turned to go and get dressed in the bedroom, it hit me!

20 April 2020.

Isaiah 53:5

“But HE was wounded for our transgressions, HE was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon HIM, And by HIS stripes, we are healed.”

“I’ve got no pain! I’ve got no pain in my back! Thank YOU, JESUS”.

We started crying. It was tears of being thankful. Tears of being happy.  

Healing is available…

 

From that day on for the next few weeks we had Communion daily. Thereafter at least 2 or 3 times a week – every time giving a health issue to the LORD – the tumors, complete healing of my brain function, arthritis, painful tailbone, restless legs, diabetes, tongue with partial feeling, cracked root on my front tooth. And the list goes on.

We stayed in the Word; we kept on learning, kept on Praising GOD. I started daily declaring GOD’s Word of healing and health over my body. Declaring “By GOD‘s Grace I am the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST JESUS”.

“By GOD’s Grace I’m the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST JESUS” “By GOD’s Grace I am the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST JESUS” “By GOD’s Grace I’m the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST JESUS” “By GOD’s Grace I’m the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST JESUS” “By GOD’s Grace I’m the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST JESUS” “By GOD’s Grace I’m the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST JESUS”

I declared the words out load, so that my ears can also hear it. Every time emphasizing the next word; building my faith.

Sometimes I couldn’t keep the beat of a song – I didn’t dwell on that. Then I would thank FATHER GOD even louder, for my complete healing, the complete healing of my brain function.

Sometimes I would drop the teaspoon while making our first cup of coffee for the day. Then previously I would have said “ug, it’s one of those days again”. Now I say “Front, Middle, Back, Up” (it sounds better in Afrikaans – “voor, middel, agter, op”) and get some exercise in.

Hermanus took good care of me, helping me in love.  

Healing is available…

 

We took it day by day. I kept a food and blood sugar analysis diary. I wrote down everything. My food and water intake, what happened and what might affect my sugar. Confessions of my healing. Progress of my healing. What I’ve learned in the Word. I wrote down everything.

“FATHER GOD, YOU carried me through all this, when fear was knocking, when death was knocking, I focused more on YOU, praising YOU more. In the sleepless nights singing YOUR praises. YOU gave me strength and healing. Thank YOU, FATHER,”.

On the 1^st of May, for the first time after the 1^st seizure, I slept through the night. By the middle of May, all “feeling” had returned to my tongue.

“From now on, you will have to do an MRI scan every three months”.

June 2020.

Jeremiah 29:11

“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”

In June I did the 1^st MRI scan after the operation. Everything looks as it should, they said. Come back in 6 months’ time. Six? No more three?

In December 2020 I did the 2^nd MRI after the operation.

The doctor asked us to sit down…

    “Here you can see where the tumor was that I operated on – that tumor is totally gone….”

Inside I am jumping up and down. Tears of joy! “Thank YOU, LORD”.

GOD did what man could not do!

Although the tumors are not from FATHER GOD, it was in HIS allowable will for my life. HE used what Satan wanted for my downfall and turned my whole unhealthy situation into miracles of healing and wellness. FATHER GOD can take what we give HIM and use it for HIS glory.  

Healing is available…

 

We realized we had to move to a bigger city that is economically more active than the quiet coastal town of Poti we were staying in. We moved to the city of Kutaisi at the beginning of July 2020. Almost 2 hours’ drive, inland.

07 July 2020.

And the familiar song: “Oh LORD my GOD, when I in awesome wonder, consider all the works THEY HANDS have made…“

The EEG test is looking good – we can lower the daily dosage…

After the second seizure the doctor prescribed anti-seizure tablets, Finlepsin 200mg. I started with a 600mg dosage per day (3 tablets).

Today I did the EEG (brain function test). The test looks good – we can lower the dosage of the tablets. I started crying when I heard the words. “Thank YOU, LORD”.

Husbands are wonderful blessings from the LORD – and I have a “blessing-from-the-LORD-husband”.

I am a ‘list-person’. Always making lists on what to pack for holiday. What items must go in front of the vehicle. Grocery lists. When to do what. I am a good ‘planner’. A natural organizer.

As we started packing for the move to the ‘big city’, I’m making my lists. Marking off what is already packed, what still needs to be packed.

Hermanus looks at me and ask, “What’s wrong?” seeing I’m close to tears.

“You know that thing between the size of a cellphone and a laptop, the white…” “Oh you’re talking about the Tablets”. I burst into tears. “No. You did not forget what it’s called because of the operation. I saw your school Senior Certificate; I saw what your marks were. They were not that good. So, no. It’s not because of the operation.”

Immediately my crying turned into laughter. It was the medicine I needed at that moment – thank YOU JESUS. I was laughing so hard; I started crying. Bless you, Hermanus.

We opened our new business in the big town where there was more economic activity. We started a business we knew how to do – a steelworks workshop.

August 2020.

I John 4:17

“As HE (CHRIST), is, so are we in this world!”

What does it mean: “As HE (CHRIST) is, so are we in this world!”

This teaches us that no matter how much we sin as believers, GOD the FATHER sees us like he sees CHRIST JESUS!

FATHER GOD knew all about the sin that I would commit. But still HE gave me JESUS. JESUS also knew all the sins and wrongs I would do, and still paid for it all on the cross. All my sins – past, present, and future sins – are already forgiven, JESUS already paid the price. That is awesome.

Father GOD not only gives us Grace (the gift I don’t deserve) HE also gives us Mercy (not getting the punishment I deserve).

We physically worked hard in our workshop. We did everything ourselves. Well, Hermanus did, I just assisted where I could.

From building the machines used for making the scrolls. Making the scrolls, welding the gates (Hermanus), picking up the gates and moving them to finishing and spray painting. Painting them, installing them. For the first few weeks we only had a translator working for us – and you know, hard labor was not part of his job description…

But GOD…

HE knew that I would need the physical activity as part of strengthening my body, to work hard and think “other” things, to keep my mind busy and staying focused on the physical work to be done – to not focus on “I wonder” about this and “what if” that, and what does dr. Google say. No, HE made sure my mind and body were kept busy.

I started realizing what Father GOD is doing in me – what Jesus did on the cross for me. For me?

What makes me so special? I’m just a little girl that grew up on a farm…

But I’m HIS little girl. HE knows my name. HE created me, and in CHRIST JESUS I’m HIS beloved. “By GOD’s Grace I am healed, I am healthy, I am blessed, I am loved by GOD, I am the righteousness of GOD in CHRIST”.

And all the while I’m building my faith.

December 2020.

Psalm 37:4

Delight yourself in the LORD, and HE will give you the desires of your heart.

“Do you see this spot right here on the scan, that’s where the tumor was…”

Wait, what? Did we hear correctly? Dr. the 10% of the tumor you had to leave are gone? My brain is healed from it?

Yes. I started crying – it was tears of thankfulness.

“Thank You FATHER GOD. Thank YOU, JESUS, for what YOU did on the cross for me”.

By the end of 2020 I had lost 35kg.

January 2021.

Isiah 53:5

“But HE was wounded for our transgressions, HE was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon HIM, And by HIS stripes we are healed”.

    “And by HIS stripes we are healed”. Do you notice it says: ‘are’.

What does that mean?

It means it is already done. The price for my sins and sickness has already been paid for. I already have the healing in my body. I took GOD on HIS Word, I accepted the healing, and Praise HIS Holy NAME.

One of the “things” I gave to FATHER GOD at Communion was the diabetes.

Because of diabetes and being insulin resistant, it was always an impossible task for me to lose weight.

Before the weight just did not want to drop.

Because of everything that happened to my health, cracking my root with the 2^nd seizure, the diabetes affecting my blood pressure and my blood pressure affecting the diabetes, my brain and body could not get to eating ‘normal’ food. My body only wanted ‘good food’.

Hermanus and I kept on working hard, eating better, kept on staying in the Word, learning. Keeping on building my faith.

Some days we worked outside late on a customer’s installation or just finishing up a job in the workshop and I was so tired. I would get into the car and just ask: “LORD please help me, please help me. I am so tired. Please just give me strength”.  And GOD did. Every time.

It was a 6 minutes’ drive from our workshop to the house we stayed in. When we stopped at home, I had strength again.

Sometimes Hermanus would crack a joke when we stopped and say: “Ag let’s just sit in the car. Then we are ready to just drive to work again in the morning”.

“No, then we’ll not be able to drink some coffee” – I would say. Hahaha, and then we would go inside.

Then after a 5-minute rest and a cup of coffee GOD had restored my strength and I could quickly clean the small house.

As time passed, I could feel my body getting stronger, my head not spinning after I moved too fast.

FATHER GOD helps us in far bigger and better ways than what we can ask or think or pray.

Our workshop was in the last building in the street going out of town. In Georgia there are a lot of stray dogs. Really a lot. One day as we were working, in comes a puppy dog, all alone. No mommy, no brother or sister. “LORD, please help. I cannot keep the puppy – not at home and not at the workshop. LORD the puppy must have a mommy, please send the mommy to come and get the puppy”.

This happened around lunch time. Every now and then I saw the puppy, but I gave it no further thought. We lock the workshop at 5.

Around quarter to 5 a car stops, and a young boy gets out. He started speaking in Georgian. No, I’m sorry, no Georgian. English please.

“We went to town earlier. We saw the puppy. We are going home now. We would like to have this puppy. Are you selling the puppy?” NO, No, no. You can have this puppy!

FATHER GOD, I did not even think about a human mommy for the puppy. But YOU knew this human mommy would be able to better take care of the puppy. Thank YOU, FATHER.  

Healing is available…

24 Feb 2022.

2 Corinthians 12:9

And HE said to me, “MY grace is sufficient for you, for MY strength is made perfect in weakness.”

GOD chooses to display HIS power in us by sustaining us in our weakness.

…and then Russia invaded Ukraine, again…

Ukraine was on our ‘bucket-list’, so to speak. But the decision not to go, was made for us.

On 24 Feb. 2022 the war broke out in Ukraine.

We were more than 1500km away from Ukraine, on the other side of the Black Sea.

The world watched in horror all the evil things happening in Ukraine. Woman, children, hospitals, civilian suburbs – ‘War Crimes’ taking place daily.

All the refugees fleeing Ukraine started to spill over because Poland can only take so many people.

And fears started to creep into Georgians of also a possible invasion of Georgia. Russia did it before.

Our children started to touch the subject of us returning home.

If we do, what will we do for a living? What will people say, what will we say? What will people think?

Hermanus and I started talking about ‘maybe’. “What if” we first visited Turkey?

“Come home, just come home”, our children started.

…and we did.

Thank YOU, FATHER GOD, that things worked out the way it did, and we did not go to Turkey.

You remembered earlier I talked about us sometimes not understanding why things did not work out, or we wanting things differently?

The Turkey earthquake claimed more than 46 000 lives.

Would we have missed it if we were there? Would we have been caught in the middle of it? Would we’ve survive it, had we been there?

Proverbs 3:5-6

5 Trust in the Lord with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; 6 In all your ways acknowledge HIM, And HE shall direct your paths.

This teaches us that since wisdom comes from YAHWEH, HE must be trusted. This often involves relying on GOD’s wisdom rather than human (our own) wisdom.

We started over in life, with nothing really. Me at 53 and Hermanus at 62 years old. We came with 3 suitcases each – mine were filled with the sentimental things we could not leave behind in a foreign country.

I don’t tell this for sympathy, I am telling this to give glory to FATHER GOD who is helping us daily. HE renewed our youth – we are both healthy and working hard daily.

We keep on learning, every day. We still receive healing.

Are we doing everything right? Is everything going smoothly in our life?

No….but GOD, always with us, helping us, teaching us.

June 2023.

Luke 1:37

³⁷ For with God nothing will be impossible.”

    …the dr. said “I don’t know what to say, I have the results of your blood tests in my hands …“

Now a year has already passed since we came back home.

We went to a new GP for a check-up and to do blood tests to see my health now. I did a small lung-function test in the doctors’ rooms. You remember I talked about the asthma pump I had to use?

The result: my lungs are above average. Thank YOU, JESUS.

I wanted the medical tests to also show that I am no longer a diabetic.

On 26 July 2023 the doctor gave me the results of my blood tests. It’s been more  than 2 years since I’ve used any medication or insulin.

My kidneys, adrenal glands and liver are all healthy and functioning 100% – thank YOU, JESUS.

The doctor could almost not believe her eyes. The pathologists had also forwarded my blood sugar levels of what they had on file.

The reading for healthy people, people with no diabetes, must be between 4 and 7.

My reading was 4.9 – thank YOU, JESUS.

October 2023.

Mark 11:24

24 Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it, and it will be yours.

…what is this now, why is this happening to my ear?

Ladies, this is for you.

Around September I started to ‘leak’ after I visited the loo. After maybe the 3^rd time (I thought it would stop by itself, maybe my bladder was not completely empty) it happened, I said “LORD YOUR Word says by JESUS stripes I am healed. Also, from whatever. LORD this leaking is a whatever situation. LORD, I receive the healing YOU have for me. Thank YOU, FATHER GOD for my complete healing. LORD, I praise YOUR Holy Name. In JESUS NAME, Amen”.

Sometime later in the month something strange started happening to my ear – the ear on the side of the operation…

My ear started feeling painful, I put my fingers on top and moved my ear in a circular motion. ‘Click’, and the pain was gone. It happened again and again and again…

I had a lot of thoughts regarding my ear. One thought was: I had the operation and in the process a muscle or something got damaged, that’s why my ear was sagging (it felt as if my ear was moving down the side of my head). I was not sure exactly what was the problem or how to fix it. Another operation?

No! Ask FATHER GOD.

I’ve learned not to give FATHER GOD the diagnosis and for sure not to give the remedy of how to fix it. GOD knows what HE’s doing AND how to fix it.

I knew where to get help…

“FATHER GOD YOUR Word says through JESUS stripes I am healed, even of things I do to myself – LORD this is now the situation of my ear. LORD, I receive the promise YOU have for me in YOUR Word for my healing. LORD YOUR Word says with YOU nothing is impossible.                                                                 

Thank YOU, FATHER GOD, for the healing of the muscles to keep my ear in its place.                                                                                                              

Amen”.

Ephesians 3:20-21 NKJV

Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.

 

Healing is available, also for you.

 

The LORD blessed me with the following miracles and healings:

• Tumor 1 is gone – dead from the roots & shriveled up. Never ever to return in JESUS NAME.
• I have all feelings on my scalp.
• The cracked root is healed.
• I have all the feelings on my tongue.
• My adrenal glands are healed.
• My tailbone is healed. For years I had a painful tailbone – right at the point! If the chair is too hard, I would rather stand.
• I am healed from arthritis.
• Tendonitis attacked my left ring-finger and my right thumb – I couldn’t hold my pen properly to write. My thumb would hook and shake uncontrollably.
• I am healed from restless legs. If you never had it, you cannot imagine how it feels. It’s like an involuntary what? I do not even know the word to describe it! You just need to move your leg. How do you sleep when you need to move? Thank YOU JESUS that you also had this condition on the cross.
• My pancreas is healed.
• My eyesight is healed. I no longer wear glasses (no glasses to watch TV and no glasses for driving).
• My brain is 100% restored and healed.
• I have full balance.
• I can sleep through the night again without needing to empty my bladder during the night.
• Today is 07 May 2023 – last night I slept on my right side (the side of the operation). The whole night – thank YOU FATHER GOD. Before this date, after the operation, I could only sleep on my back – the whole night. Every night.
• I am healed from diabetes.  As a diabetic my reading was on average between 12 and 17. April 2021 was the last time I used insulin. I don’t drink any tablets. Today on 26 July 2023 I received the results of the blood tests I’ve done in June. The reading for a healthy person without diabetes must be between 4 and 7. My result: 4.9
• The muscles on the side of my skull are healed – keeping my ear in its place.
• Leaking bladder is healed.

“FATHER GOD, I want to say ‘thank YOU’ for all the blessings, healings, and miracles that I have received and are still receiving. LORD, I bless YOUR Holy NAME”.

• Was there ever in your life, that you can remember, a day and time that you asked CHRIST to come into your heart?
• Do you believe in CHRIST?
• Do you believe that JESUS was born of a virgin?
• Do you believe that JESUS is the Only Begotten SON of GOD?
• Do you believe that JESUS was crucified and died on the cross for your sins? For your sickness and diseases?
• Do you believe that JESUS was raised from the dead on the 3^rd day?
• Are you a child of GOD? Did you give your life to CHRIST?
• Do you believe that you are a sinner?
• Do you believe that CHRIST forgave your sins?
• Have you been baptized?

Romans 10:9 NKJV.

That if you confess with your mouth the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.

If any of your answers are NO, please surrender your life to CHRIST Now.

“Dear LORD JESUS, I know that I am a sinner, and I ask for YOUR forgiveness. I believe YOU died for my sins and rose from the dead. I turn from my sins and invite YOU to come into my heart and life. I want to trust and follow YOU as my LORD and Savior.

In the Name of YOUR SON, our LORD JESUS CHRIST.

Amen”.

Rom. 10:13(a)

For whosoever shall call upon the Name of the LORD shall be saved.

    But now that you have surrendered your life to CHRIST, you have to change your life, your way of doing, stop with all the bad things.

You have to. You have to. You have to!

You have to deliberately change your way of thinking. Don’t let your thoughts just have free reign – go where they want to. NO! Stop them. Stop the thoughts. Put the Word of GOD in your head, in your thoughts. If the bad or negative thoughts keep coming start praising GOD. Sing out loud. Sing louder and louder. Keep on praising GOD.

Now the negative-thought-attacks might appear more and more frequently – then you praise more and louder. It’s a win on your side and GOD gets all the glory. 

If your old friends try to keep you in their circle of bad, get NEW friends.

Ask FATHER GOD to show you where to find new friends.

Lessons I’ve learned & my understanding of these lessons:

Please remember I am not a doctor or medical practitioner. This whole testimony was my journey, what I have learned. Go to FATHER GOD through CHRIST JESUS. Study the Word. Stay in the TRUTH. Build your faith.

Jesus is the Only Way. If you had prayed the prayer on the previous page, you are now on the right path. But to answer Q1: That’s just how we got our “training”. But do make sure you have no unforgiveness, bitterness, hate, envy, jealousy, or any other negative emotion in your heart. Remember FATHER GOD takes each one of us on our own journey, whatever the ‘happening’ that causes the journey. And FATHER GOD is so full of grace and mercy that HE meets us where our faith is at that moment. If we belief at ‘that’ moment the operation will be a success and that we will be healed, FATHER GOD gives us the strength to endure. FATHER GOD knows us and knows how to “handle” us in our dealings with HIM.

2. What must I do to deserve/get GOD’s grace?

 

Eph. 2:8-9

8 For by grace you are saved through faith, and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God; 9 it is not from works, so that no one can boast.

Nothing. Nothing at all – grace is a gift. It is free. As soon as I want to work for it, it’s no longer a gift.

No. You are still healed but Satan will come back with an attack, and maybe the pain & symptoms might be worse than before. But keep on believing and Praising GOD for the healing you have received, telling the pain & symptoms that you have received GOD’s healing, that you are healed.

Attacks on your body will still happen – now maybe even more so.

Stand your ground on the healing you have received! Keep on declaring it while you take your medicine and receive your treatment.

I am not a doctor, and I am not giving medical advice. I am just telling you my story of healing and what I did after my healing. For each person and situation, it’s different. On certain medicines you can just stop. From other medicines you need to be weaned. Meaning start lowering one of your dosages per day. BUT first speak to your doctor, do tests.

Meaning exactly what it says. If I hear something and it’s negative or it’s about dying early or ‘you’re getting old now’, this and that will start happening. No. No. No. No. That is not applicable to me. This will not happen to me. I will not take this ugly, negative, scary thing for me, as if it is mine. No thank you. I know my FATHER GOD.

We are in the age of information, social media, TV commercials and dr. Google, to name a few. Then there are some people who don’t like us AND some good-meaning friends, family and even church family that through their words affect us. And we, without even realizing it, put ourselves in a “word-jail”, we take their words and make it our own. Thinking about it, visualizing it, saying it. NO, NO, NO!!!  I give it NO thought.

Yes, miracles do still happen today. I still receive and see miracles.

A miracle is where GOD changes HIS law for a certain situation, for a certain period. Then the law goes back to the original state. Yes, I can live from miracle to miracle but that’s not GOD’s best, not what HE wants for us. HE wants us to grow BUT HE will always use a miracle if needed.

I was diabetic. It was not because of genetics, and I wasn’t born a diabetic. But even if you were born with it, GOD can still heal you from it. I know it was because of my wrong and bad eating habits that I became a diabetic. I am eating healthily now. I try to keep my weight down and constant. If I go back to my old ways of unhealthy eating, I CAN become a diabetic again.

As you remember at the start of this book, I said I was passive, also in thinking and thoughts. Well WAS is the word here. As soon as a negative thought, emotion or picture enters my mind, I stop it. I say by JESUS stripes I am healed, that negative thing will not happen to me. When I forget something and thoughts of “maybe” or “what if” start to form, I thank FATHER GOD that my brain is healed, that I can think and remember. I do not give any thought to any negative thing.

Maybe something, maybe nothing. FATHER GOD gives us HIS Grace and HIS Mercy to make us aware of HIS Love for us – HIS Grace and Mercy is enough for us.

Good things happen to good people – and bad things happen to good people. We live in a fallen world. The things we go through are different for each one of us. But GOD’s grace is still the same. HE is still the same. But we live in a fallen world with the prince of darkness (Satan) and his demons controlling or influencing many people to produce bad things and bad circumstances.

1. Good with good – how we all want it to be – they respond good to our good we do to them,
2. Evil with good – how it usually is – they respond evil to the good we do,
3. Evil with evil – here we do evil back – it’s not the way to go,
4. Good with evil – this is how FATHER GOD wants us to treat others. Bless them that curse us.

NO! definitely NO. As soon as a negative thought or picture enters my mind, I stop it immediately. I say, usually out loud, that I reject the thought or image. That it will not happen to me or us. When I/we enter a hospital/doctor’s rooms, I say out loud that all viruses and germs will die on impact with my/our bodies.

When I step into the rain or wind, I say out loud that no wind (or rain) on my head or on my body will make me sick in JESUS Name. When I feel the flu coming, I say that it is written “by JESUS stripes I am healed. I receive the healing and I thank FATHER GOD for the healing.

FATHER GOD has already done it. That’s why HE sent us JESUS. HE says in HIS Word: Isiah 53:5 “But He was wounded for our transgressions, He was bruised for our iniquities; The chastisement for our peace was upon Him, And by His stripes, we are healed.” (NKJV) The ultimate plan of God is not divine healing but divine health. FATHER GOD gave us this earthly bodies to look after – but we do not really look after our health or body’s. So, when we get sick or get a dreadful disease, also then do FATHER GOD wants us to be healed.

I must forgive as quickly as possible. Immediately – whoever “they” are. I don’t forgive to benefit “them”, I forgive to benefit myself. Forgiveness set me free from my self-imposed prison. If I forgive and don’t forget, it’s still a self-imposed prison. When I forgive someone, I am not doing it for their sake, when I forgive, I benefit. Then it is possible for GOD to also forgive me and never think of it again. When I forgive others, it pleases FATHER GOD.

“Forgiveness is a key that unlocks the door of resentment and the handcuffs of hate. It is a power that breaks the chains of bitterness and the shackles of selfishness” – borrowed.

Forgiveness and trust in GOD are the keys to get my prayers answered.

I can talk to FATHER GOD about anything. HE listens. HE does not judge or condemn me. He does not leave me. HE is always with me. And yes, I can ask HIM anything. To help me with everything and with anything. HE will not give it to me if it’s not going to benefit me or if it is not in HIS will for me. HE gives me desires and talents to do things, to be creative. To work. To earn an income. Don’t be like a bad steward and bury the talents. Work it. Develop it. Grow it. Get skilled in it. And use it to earn an honest living.

Just believe GOD. Trust GOD. Receive the healing – just as you would a gift, a present, a cup of coffee, a smile offered to you – just take it. “It sounds too easy” you might say. And GOD says: “It is that easy, just receive MY gift. The gift of healing”. And Praise HIM for the gift of healing. Meditate on HIS Word, and HIS promises and be a doer of the Word.

“You need to grow in your faith”. “But how”, you might ask.

Good question.

You need to trust FATHER GOD more and more and more. Start with the small things.

How small? Start trusting GOD for the parking in front of the shop where you are going.

Ladies / nervous drivers, trusting GOD that when you get to the intersection, that traffic will not be hectic and that you will be able to stop, check and go.

Asking and trusting FATHER GOD that when you search in your house for that small missing item, that you will find it quickly.

Start with the small things.

When you wake up in the morning and your sinuses are blocked, don’t say “Oh here comes the flu / bronchitis. NO, NO, NO!!! Stop the thoughts immediately – Take No Thought! Rather start thanking GOD that by JESUS stripes you are healed.

It’s like when you are on social media. You do not accept all the invites that you get. So just like that. If you do not want “it”, don’t accept / invite it into your body.

If somebody say that with old age come this and that OR any Before you say “Yes”, ask yourself: “…and this is just the way you want it, mmm….?” Don’t. Just don’t.

Yes, yes, and yes.

 

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